Hey, it’s me, EM.
I feel really sad, or if there’s a word higher than it but below “devastated”, that is accurately what I feel right now.
I just came back from the university after checking my final grades. And my grades are not as good as I wished it to be. I can’t blame anyone because I know I was lazy the whole semester. What makes me feel worse is that I could no longer change it because they are my final grades. Again, MY FINAL GRADES!! T.T
The numbers on my grade sheet mean so much to me. They could be the ticket into which I could pave my way to a better life after graduation. Here in the Philippines, especially Cebu, the competition for a decent job is high, and almost everybody is geared and ready for battle. What can a low-grader like me do to at at least land the job that I want?
But the devastation of my academic life will not be the end of my Life. I wouldn’t allow it.
I just have to remember one thing. Yes, one thing. Faith
Faith in God is my only way to make my self better. Since I became a Christian, I was more dedicated and inspired to be a better student. I want to show everyone that if you have Jesus in your life, you can do everything.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
-Philippians: 4:13 (NKJV)
But to this point, the only thing I did was to stare at the clouds and pray, without even opening up my notes for a review.
33A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest–34and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.-Proverbs 24:33-34